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you’re pathetic
Does it hurt when you call me that?
no, because you are pathetic
Look at me when you say it.
you’re pathetic
there were tears in her eyes
she was angelic
I love you
i know.
- kita
I started crying when I read the last two lines.
because I know it's already happened.
and all that there is left to do,
all that there is left to do,
the only thing left to do,
the only thing left to say,
is mourn right. because it's (was) worth it.
Does it hurt when you call me that?
no, because you are pathetic
Look at me when you say it.
you’re pathetic
there were tears in her eyes
she was angelic
I love you
i know.
- kita
I started crying when I read the last two lines.
because I know it's already happened.
and all that there is left to do,
all that there is left to do,
the only thing left to do,
the only thing left to say,
is mourn right. because it's (was) worth it.
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Jay Stancils 🦎 
🌲
suquili@poa.st
you gave me an idea
RT: https://poa.st/objects/b113ec67-9580-445f-ac3e-b019ad75c13e
RT: https://poa.st/objects/b113ec67-9580-445f-ac3e-b019ad75c13e
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i pinch myself,
to see if I'm dreaming.
i touch myself,
to check I'm still there.
and that level of violence,
i wasn't aware.
it took me so long
to realize nothing is fair.
to see if I'm dreaming.
i touch myself,
to check I'm still there.
and that level of violence,
i wasn't aware.
it took me so long
to realize nothing is fair.
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self-denial.
i wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat feeling big hands fucking me and i am lying.
"What else do you think it is? What, do you think its imagination? What, you think he just came up with that stuff? You think these guys just came up with that stuff? Oh, yeah, she was uh, she was uh well uh yknow raped by her father when she was like 5 years old and he well it turns out he was he was yknow he was by this guy and he even said he even said he came inside of me. And thats when he had Bob inside of me. THEY SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU. HE SPELLS IT OUT FOR YOU. THEY SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU." - Charls Carrol, *The Abused Generation*
People don't just come up with shit like that.
I always thought I was lying when I told people that I was molested. For many years, I was convinced that I was a morally bankrupt sociopath creating a false narrative to retroactively justify my disgusting, repuslive behaviour, by playing the victim in such a way that people could not reject.
I was not lying. I just did not know enough to be able to tell my family. And I will never know enough to be able to tell my family.
Some things you know but you can never prove. If you think things like this don't exist you are either delusional or malicious. There are things that a person *knows* but can never prove.
I will never know if I was raped. I know that I prolapsed, I know that my first memories are of my anus hurting and bleeding. I know that my first fragments are of a weight on top of me and inside me. But I will never *know*. I will never know ENOUGH to prove to somebody else that they should have done something. I have to live with it alone because i was never given the luxury of knowing enough for other people but instead given the putrefying abscess of knowing only enough for myself.
All you can do is NOT LOOK AWAY. even when it doesn't make sense. even when it's wrong. even when it doesn't fit. DO NOT LOOK AWAY. Never avert your gaze. That is my one duty in this life.
To not look away. Even from myself.
i wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat feeling big hands fucking me and i am lying.
"What else do you think it is? What, do you think its imagination? What, you think he just came up with that stuff? You think these guys just came up with that stuff? Oh, yeah, she was uh, she was uh well uh yknow raped by her father when she was like 5 years old and he well it turns out he was he was yknow he was by this guy and he even said he even said he came inside of me. And thats when he had Bob inside of me. THEY SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU. HE SPELLS IT OUT FOR YOU. THEY SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU." - Charls Carrol, *The Abused Generation*
People don't just come up with shit like that.
I always thought I was lying when I told people that I was molested. For many years, I was convinced that I was a morally bankrupt sociopath creating a false narrative to retroactively justify my disgusting, repuslive behaviour, by playing the victim in such a way that people could not reject.
I was not lying. I just did not know enough to be able to tell my family. And I will never know enough to be able to tell my family.
Some things you know but you can never prove. If you think things like this don't exist you are either delusional or malicious. There are things that a person *knows* but can never prove.
I will never know if I was raped. I know that I prolapsed, I know that my first memories are of my anus hurting and bleeding. I know that my first fragments are of a weight on top of me and inside me. But I will never *know*. I will never know ENOUGH to prove to somebody else that they should have done something. I have to live with it alone because i was never given the luxury of knowing enough for other people but instead given the putrefying abscess of knowing only enough for myself.
All you can do is NOT LOOK AWAY. even when it doesn't make sense. even when it's wrong. even when it doesn't fit. DO NOT LOOK AWAY. Never avert your gaze. That is my one duty in this life.
To not look away. Even from myself.
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THX 1138 is a movie about how necessary it is that you remain unproductive, inefficient, unprofitable, unstable, unbalanced. It is a 1971 American social science fiction film co-written and directed by George Lucas in his feature directorial debut. Produced by Francis Ford Coppola and co-written by Walter Murch, the film stars Robert Duvall and Donald Pleasence, with Don Pedro Colley, Maggie McOmie, and Ian Wolfe in supporting roles. The film is set in a dystopian future in which the citizens are controlled by android police and mandatory use of drugs that suppress emotions.
THX 1138 was developed from Lucas's 1967 student film Electronic Labyrinth: THX 1138 4EB, which he created while attending the USC School of Cinematic Arts.
You can find the full movie here,
https://archive.org/details/THX-1138_Original_Cut.mkv
THX 1138 was developed from Lucas's 1967 student film Electronic Labyrinth: THX 1138 4EB, which he created while attending the USC School of Cinematic Arts.
You can find the full movie here,
https://archive.org/details/THX-1138_Original_Cut.mkv
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Edited 1 month ago
sometimes, it's better to think before you speak
sometimes, it's better to sleep on it
sometimes, it's better to polish before you publish
sometimes, it's better to keep some things to yourself
sometimes, it's better to sleep on it
sometimes, it's better to polish before you publish
sometimes, it's better to keep some things to yourself
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@Ignace
Egon Schiele - Der Tod und das Mädchen (1915)
Oil on canvas
RE: https://dsmc.space/objects/2cfcba8c-4011-48aa-9c09-2db7dff3cb76
Egon Schiele - Der Tod und das Mädchen (1915)
Oil on canvas
RE: https://dsmc.space/objects/2cfcba8c-4011-48aa-9c09-2db7dff3cb76
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