on the last train car with the minorities. trying ignore arabic tiktok (full volume and not skipping ads) from like 3 people, french phone calls on speaker (full volume and fucking angry ass dogs in the bg) and some kinda indian watching war footage (full volume) while i watch my physiognomy analysis videos.

@Kita the method 😝

@synu @Kita esoteric zoomers like us have a hard time with digesting exoteric goy slop church stuff. still important to go. worship with others in a sanctuary of colored light and the bellowing song of the pipe organ is worth the hassle imo.

catholic church cuts out the most slop (pastors explaining the bible in their own interpretation for manipulative purposes) and leaves the music, the rituals, and the bible reading. a catholic homily is usually only like 2 min but it's always my least fav part.

it is really hard to fit in with catholics with the phrases and sitting and standing stuff, but focusing on all that is missing the point of church: getting up in the morning and singing with non-degenerates on a sunday when you don't have to.

buying whole chickens now. cheaper than just buying thighs. more meat. little bit extra work but it's actually fun to butcher when you get good. also roasting whole birds full of celery and carrots is SO GOATED.

favorite part is throwing the veggie stuffings, fat, bones and bits in a stock pot with a few peppercorns. my house smells good and the windows are foggy. at the end of it all, i get a tupperware full of meat, and a quart of EXTREMELY concentrated chicken stock. licked the spoon after ladling it into a huge mason jar and ZING that shit healed me. +5 CON +20 HP +10 STA. if i don't make the most banging soup soon, all my stock will be GONE cuz i'll just be drinking that shit STRAIGHT UP!!!

@Kita sean will never believe in god. belief inspires fear. sean has no fear of anything he can't see, touch and sink his teeth into. he only fears what he deludes himself into believing he can manipulate. he fears women, and he fears being seen as one - as something a man could manipulate. he doesn't fear god, he ignores god. he doesn't fear the man who he betrayed standing in his home holding a knife. he ignores what's out of his control.

communion couldn't be desiccated by someone so weak and debased. the ritual is still sacred because those who are unworthy of christ body are rebuked for trespassing.

there will still and always be many opportunities for redemption. when i get baptized we can take communion together and find that redemption.

@synu @Kita WOW reals. kt is innocent woke tho. gotten many a "oh! :(".

@Kita @synu has the lord hardened my heart? i feel like nothing touches my soul from without anymore. i feel the warmth only every once in a while, but still it's muted and vague like i'm trying to feel through thick rubber gloves.

is faith and love for mystery my only nourishment? is there anything for ME or do i have to do all the work!?

sex sucks... but maybe birth control will fix it LOL

@synu @Kita the artist soul was born to suffer, fated to jest, chosen to hope

@Kita @synu white pill with no suffering is just bliss. time spent in the fiery crucible of suffering is essential in forging a system of hope.

@Kita @synu lol doomed to jest and to suffer

rare alcohol exploit discovered (empath class only): get drunk for free by letting ur homies drink instead. any% world record implications???

@Kita @synu and a ipod shuffle

@synu adventure party! i wanna be cleric or paladin!

@synu never goon on ur runes brah

@synu how's this work? can u do actual multiplayer?

@synu @q THIS IS CYBER BULLYING

been seriously abusing my red dead redemption and reggae privileges to numb the pain

@synu tru except that most north americans are hylic golems

astrological forecast:

https://forum.thirdculture.top/thread/37/defense-against-the-dark-arts-12/#bottom

tomorrow is gonna go nuts...